15,051 days

Ramón would have turned 46 today.

This morning, as I tried to think of a photo to share in honor of his big day, this one came to mind. We’d just purchased a nice camera to take on our upcoming cross-country RV trip. When I took this photo, I was playing around with the camera settings, and he was eating, per usual.

About a year later, I was uncomfortably lying on the hospital-couch-bed-thing, unable to sleep. My mind was racing, but my heart was full of gratitude as I thought about the various forms of kindness we’d been shown in the weeks since Ramón’s leukemia diagnosis. So, in the wee hours of the morning, I designed thank you cards online.

I used this photo as the image for a card that read “We scream THANK YOU!” with our names below it. How clever was I? I ordered 250 cards.

A few days later, Ramón and I were up to our usual hospital shenanigans when I turned to him.

“Oh my gosh. I think I spelled your name wrong on the thank you cards,” I said.

He stared at me.

“I think I put an accent mark over the ‘a,’ not the ‘o.’”

He shook his head. “You don’t even know my name.”

I hopped online to review the proof and, sure enough, 250 cards signed by me and Rámon—not Ramón—were en route. Whoops.

If you think that stopped me from personalizing the cards and sending them all over the nation, you’re wrong. I just added a sticker acknowledging my mistake: “Bláme it on the cáncer.”

Happy birthday, Ramón!

The world was lucky to have you for the 15,051 days you graced this planet. And I am still overjoyed to have spent 3,136 of them with you.



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9 responses to “15,051 days”

  1. Margie Tyler Avatar
    Margie Tyler

    You never disappoint, Drew!

  2. Sue Faulkner Avatar
    Sue Faulkner

    Without humor, nothing’s funny! I love your sense of humor!

  3. Kim Jarvis Avatar
    Kim Jarvis

    First isn’t 15051 a palindrome number … same backwards and forwards kinda cool. Second I would’ve used them too… but probably wouldn’t have thought to be creative w the stickers. Love reading your writings!! Love you!

    1. Drew D. Avatar
      Drew D.

      I noticed the palindrome, too. Pretty special, in my math-nerd opinion. Love you, too, Kim!

  4. Luke Raskopf Avatar
    Luke Raskopf

    Hey, Drew! I don’t know how I found your blog, but I love it. I lost my dad two years ago and the way you’re engaging with grief and loss really speaks to me. This is such a sweet little memory, and I thank you for sharing it. “Bláme it on the cáncer” — brilliant! 😂😂

    1. Drew D. Avatar
      Drew D.

      Aww, your comment means so much to me. I never know if people get tired of reading grief-related content, but it doesn’t stop me. I find comfort in sharing the evolution of grief. I hope you, too, are regularly graced by memories of your dad.

      1. Luke Raskopf Avatar

        I definitely haven’t gotten tired of it, and loss is such an integral part of life that that I can’t imagine I ever will. I really admire you for putting your heart out there authentically, regardless of what people think! Thank you for the wish, and I hope the same. It’s been a hard couple years, but it’s definitely gotten better. This second anniversary was rough but not as difficult as the first one. I’m sure it will get easier with time (and then harder, and then easier, and on and on)…

  5. Leslie P Wingate Avatar
    Leslie P Wingate

    This is so beautiful. Chills!

  6. Travis Avatar
    Travis

    Love that picture and the story. Thank you so much!

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